Entitlement vs. Professional D/s

Where I am at, quite simply and happily right now…

I am currently taking on clients for professional Domination. Sometimes I am contacted by an interested party who has experience seeing a professional. Sometimes they end up asking for my services for free, for less than market value, for trade, or for, well anything else I — a female trans person — hasn’t indicated I work for. I find this not only distressing as someone trying to pay their rent using skills and expertise they’ve cultivated over time, but as a minority person almost exclusively responding to cis (usually heterosexual) white males who have probably never been asked to work for free, for trade, or for anything other than their professional pay rate in their life.

If someone mentions that they have an income flow situation, I sometimes mention that I might consider partial trade. Depending on our rapport to that point, I might also mention the possibility of engaging in a training arrangement, or maybe a personal sub dynamic if we find (through other occasions for play) that we have that sort of chemistry. Either of these options would make the amount someone is paying into my household a different negotiation completely. Those two options are far different from the “sessioning” model of professional Domination though. What I often get back in response are people saying yes, they want to be a personal sub because it’s “more personal”, and because instead of meeting for one hour once in a while when they can afford it, we can really go to town bringing them to new places over extended and frequent periods of time. I also hear from some of these same people they they aren’t interested in a vetting process, as they don’t feel they need it (after I’ve mentioned I have one). These people will list that they’re attractive, and can take a lot of pain, that they’re sexy, and love and respect Dominant people, that they really need to let go and give up control… This is their way of convincing me they’re good submissive candidates. Do you see the pattern of entitlement here? To me, it’s clear as day. It’s also one of my least favorite parts of this job and the reason why I negotiate with many, but actually scene with extremely few. Professional Dominants, frequently female, queer, and/or trans people, and not infrequently people of color, deal with an extraordinary amount of privileged consumers. The name of the game is boundaries — boundaries we’re often used to having to hold in our personal lives too.

Today I wrote a potential customer a letter in response to a few letters he had sent me. It took me a few days to generate the energy to respond to his bravado and complete missing of the boat about how negotiation with a professional works. He, like many men do, had glossed over the requirements of my vetting process, offered me less than my professional rate, jumped at the chance to make this an unpaid or underpaid “relationship” rather than a work arrangement, offered trade instead of pay, and went on about how much he had to offer as a picky, attractive, limitless specimen of male strength, who really needed a lot of attention and a professional’s trained hand to keep him interested.

A couple days after he hadn’t heard back from me he sent an email mentioning things on my wishlist, I can only guess as a way to keep my interest in him ongoing. Readers, please understand that unless I actually receive something from you with a nice, respectful note tucked alongside, chatting about my wishlist over email is boring and definitely not a favorite activity of mine. I hate shopping. I don’t get excited about things the way cartoon girlies do. I assure you that when I receive a gift I’m not jumping up and down in my panties clapping my hands, only to collapse in a perfectly reclined position, arms embracing my pillow, dreamily mouthing the utterance of your name. If you send me something I can use, I’ll probably want to hurt you with it or I’ll send you a photo of myself wearing it as a thank you. It will probably inspire a scene between us. It will stimulate further conversation if we’ve been out of touch. It may make me take a slight bit more interest in you, as I recognize that you’ve made an effort to connect with me, which led you to action… Action. That’s where it’s at. I like subs who are into action. I care so much less for “say”. Please: “do”. My wishlist is linked at the bottom of my professional emails to give you an impression of what my interests look like, and give you an opportunity to buy something I actually need or want for myself or my workspace, should you so desire. I am not a fish, and it is not a hook.

In writing my potential client back I found I had a lot more to say about what it means to be a sub and Dom in a D/s relationship dynamic than I thought. The letter also outlined for me the true difference between planning a session for professional pay, and engaging a person I wish to play with who allows me to plan our time together, and who offers me support and care exactly as I ask for it. They are different things, for sure. I do a lot more emotional and mental work planning professional service, as I’m usually heavily curbing an entitled ego in the process. I think a lot of people want to believe that they are cut out for a more personal dynamic than professional session play, but that’s frequently a fantasy. Most people just want to you do what they want you to do and call it your idea, take responsibility for the entire thing, and not need much of anything in return. Which is why it’s a paid service.

The person I was writing ended his last correspondence mentioning that he was wondering what my impressions of him were, and that he had high hopes, after months of research, about our potential connection — hopefully as a personal sub who could benefit from more time under my hands (and offer considerably less financial support). That is where this letter begins:

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My impressions: You like to be in control. You think your idea of what subbing is is, in fact, what creates a good sub for a Dominant. You think you know better than I about the process of becoming a sub of mine. These are my offhand impressions… Honestly, these are particularly unattractive qualities for a potential sub.

Because of these impressions, I disagree with you wholeheartedly about what you think you are asking for. The position of personal sub is for those subs who have the heart of a submissive. One who wishes more than anything to be a part of their Dominant’s life in whatever way might make their Dominant’s life easier and happier. A person who is in training to potentially become a personal sub, learns to do the dishes, cook, clean impeccably well, chauffeur, offer massage and body worship as particularly as their Dominant desires, etc. They may be required to construct or repair toys as is needed and their skills allow, provide manual labor, or a host of other helpful tasks.

Concerning the time I spend with the very special person who would be my personal sub, it is time where that person is allowed to support me in some way of my choosing, and it is also a challenge of mine for them to please me in the way they complete such services. The more willing and happy they are to follow orders, to delight me, to be at my disposal and mercy, and to enjoy their own labor, the more inclined and inspired I am to treat them with a BDSM scene of one sort or another. It is not the sub’s “right” to receive anything in particular from me. The position of a personal sub is, yes, more intimate. There is a very personal balance of needs, wants, desires, and exchanges between me and a sub dedicated to our dynamic. Yes, I am also beholden to training them, to taking notice of their needs, and to maintaining a relationship which feeds us both. D/s cannot happen without equals deciding to respect one another and re-balancing the scales towards a particular and meaningful imbalance.

From your description of what you’re looking for, it seems you would like me to spend hours and hours playing with your body, attending to your needs, and taking you places you would like to experience and go. There seems to be no regard for the amount of effort, energy, planning, supply cost, physical capacity, emotional and psychological preparation, training, attentiveness, experience, inspiration, and consideration it takes to control another human being intimately for any amount of time.

There is a reason why sessioning with a Dominant costs as much as it does. It is for all of the reasons above and more. You have your vocation, I and others like me have ours. Very few people have the heart of a sub, and even fewer have the ability to let their egos go in an effort to enjoy the path they have signed up to be led along. It is a remarkable person who is able to feed their (deserving) Dominant in ways which keep them pleased, inspired, and wanting more from them.

I am not saying I know your heart. In fact if you can contemplate what I’ve written and see it for what it is, if what I have described is something within you which calls for recognition, please do write me further as I am game to discuss more. However, if in reading this you realize that you are actually more interested in the scenes we find ourselves in, and meeting up in order to “play” rather than to be trained in the art of pleasing a Dominant — with the opportunity of reward ahead, rather than the expectation or demand of it — then we should talk about sessioning together professionally instead.

I vet people. I do not play or session with random people who I know nothing about that I met on the internet. There are reasons for this, primarily that it is unsafe for both you and I. I require one to jump through various hoops in order that I would put my energy and talents into their body. It is my prerogative to do so.

If you are interested in sending me a gift, you should. As I get to know you any effort you put forward to please me or to support me is a step in the direction of proving to me that there are ways you value what I offer, and that you value me, myself.

You do not deserve my consideration. You may humbly ask for it. You may follow orders and present what I ask for. You may answer my questions thoughtfully and share yourself as honestly as you can in hopes to gain my favor and my time.

I do not deserve your submission. It is something which you may offer me and I may decide to accept for a time. You must be inspired to give it to me though. If you believe I am a potentially worthy Dominant, then let your courtship of the creature that I am begin. That requires you to offer me something of yourself. Of course you should be picky about who you entrust your heart, mind, and body to. All creatures should be. We are all worthy of love and respect, regardless of our physical attractiveness or particular skills.

I look forward to hearing back if you are inspired to continue discussions with me. If not, I understand. I wish you well on your journey,
~Sir

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I want to hold open options for people who cannot afford my services when it makes sense to do so. I especially want people who are transgender, queer, or live other minority realities not to suffer for finding BDSM action and exploration with a professional if that’s what they choose. On the other hand, to lessen my frustration I should probably stop offering trade and other options. I haven’t figured out where the boundary lies yet. I’m still figuring out the obnoxious world of marketing as a person who wishes to be free from the rules of our society… I suppose these conversations are ones which must be had for me to find my place with potential clients comfortably. Thank you for reading. Please write me if you have thoughts on today’s essay. I’m curious to know what others have found as their own answers to these musings.

Play On My Friends,
~ Creature

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Something New

Do I look different?

I am having a hard time writing this post because I feel vulnerable. I’m excited and I want to tell everyone all the things. It’s not really new, just… finally. A coming out. After coming out about a million things in this lifetime, I think it would get easier, but it doesn’t. I still have to take a deep breath and dare myself to jump… Every time I put words to my behaviors it’s after a long struggle and someone giving me permission. No one is ever surprised, but that moment of saying it outloud can’t be taken back. The first time is always the hardest.

I’ve started working as a professional Dominant. And I love it!

ProDoming is potentially the most empowering thing I have ever done. It helps me know who I am. I have a world of fun within my scenes, and it offers many of my skills to my clients. There’s more to it than the satisfaction of a job well done though, getting paid what I ask for my time and talents, to be who I am, and to use my body, mind, emotions, intuition, my communication skills, imagination, sex geekery, and passion for being in the moment, is everything. I also find it incredibly healing and confidence building to tell a client what I will and will not do and have the answer to my outline be a respectful, “Yes, Sir”.

I love performing, and it is what I have pursued my entire life, but I don’t get paid what I should for being an artist. Doming uses all of my performance skills and commands a respectful pay grade. Do I think I’ll be able to do this long? I don’t know. I’m still learning, even after 6 years immersed in the kink community, with a few years teaching kink classes, and 22 years in sexuality education under my belt. I love to please. I love making offerings whilst reading what my sub needs moment to moment and fitting that into my personal desires and design. So far that’s what Doming feels like to me, and it feels sustainable.

Who will I become? No one but who I am. I intend on continuing in this job to the extent that I can do it my way (I mean, why try doing things any other way at this point?). If I dress femme it will be because I feel like it that day — and I don’t feel femme most (if any) days. I will be me, handling my clients the ways I see fit, and presenting myself in the ways that make me feel confident. Not coerced, not reaching beyond my boundaries, not playing games to attract someone’s eye who isn’t a good match for what I have to offer. I intend on being simple, perverted, happy to connect, sadistic, playful, fluid, imaginative, dandy, me.

I always want to encourage the people around me, my students, my audience, my friends and lovers, to play. I think that’s what makes D/s, BDSM, and kink fun to being with. If you’re interested in working with me drop me a line. As one friend said, “I can’t wait to see how this influences your stage life”. I’m also excited to see where my solo show, NO SHAME, goes from here. There is more of it to develop, and I do think working in the domain of sexuality and sensuality is part of my story. Wish me well.

Play On My Friends,
~ Karin

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