Sitting with Fear

Photo by Becca A. Lewis

Photo by Becca A. Lewis

Fear is a part of who I am.  I cannot pretend it away or top it with defiance.  I cannot submit to it without allowing depression and anger to take me over.  I cannot ignore it lest it become a wall that no longer allows me to live the way I most want to be.

Fear is.  Simply.  When I let it.

I have power deciding what is best for myself when I am in conversation with my fear.  Talking with Fear I can see it better – the shape and weight, this shadow form effecting me.  I can understand the history fear brings with it – seduction to leave present and react with force that I gathered long before now.  I feel it’s breath, smell it’s scent, and understand it in animal terms when I brave looking fear in the eye and I approach it cautiously.

Understanding it better, I begin to live with my fear.  I drink tea and go about my day acknowledging its presence in the room around me.  Perhaps over time I make friends with my fear, and one day, even if it is not completely gone, I realize it is ok.  I can be happy, even with my fear, peaceful knowing it is unendingly in tow.

To Breath and Being,
~ Karin

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