Trust Fails

clothespins on my back and ear... you can't see them all, dark and my focus on the forefront cloud my understanding of all that is happening. Only in the unfolding, the deconstruction, can I understand what was really there all along.

I need to choose trust.
Learn trust.
Trust trust.

It’s hard – like I didn’t know anything could be this hard hard.

Could trust make me more resilient than fear?
What if I put my trust in the wrong things?
Trust cannot work tandem with controlling the outcome…
Could not trying to see three steps ahead lead to a more effective dealing with my present?

Clothespins on my back and ear… I can’t feel them all.  Focus on the forefront clouds my understanding of all that is happening. Only in unfolding, the deliberate deconstruction, can it be understood what was truly there all along.  And I appreciate this journey through the unknown…  this kind of play, play requiring letting go and great confidence in my partner, this play teaching me to let go to find my (our) joy.

Control might be my inner power’s enemy?
I should not continue to carry it in lieu of confidence.

– I promise this to the older me, the Karin desiring happiness beyond where I find myself now:
I will try.  I want to succeed.

To Breath and Being,
~ Karin

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